December 24, 2003
Christmas Groove
Today was the beginning of a Dysfunctional Christmas. Actually, everything in the immediate family seems relatively normal this year; a Christmas Eve dinner gift exchange at mom's, with trips to dad's and aunt's scheduled for tomorrow. Usually I feel stretched too thin at this time of year, trying to give equal parts love to all relatives without leaving anyone feeling left out. I suppose I still feel guilty at not seeing Florida snowbird grandparents at all this fall holiday season, but the situation is righted in my mind with a severe heart-to-heart with grandmom, my neurons firing at just the right pace tonight to be intelligent and remembering without being weird and mathematical.
The new year needs changes as I said at the spellcasting session, and tonight I'm beginning to see what those changes are. Too much viewing a zen motor-cycle-riding future and a happy family life as being mutually exclusive, growing negative thoughts toward everything has left me with some actual regrets in handling things last year. Too late to correct, so, as the Japanese say, it's time to perservere and be optimistic.
The new year opens with a trip to Paris, which may or may not lend itself to 'blog updates (sadly, my cell phone has no bluetooth, and my laptop has no infrared, so GPRS is out of the picture for 'net access. Wi-fi may still be an option, if I can find an access point).
I'll leave with a handy photo of sunset at Beach No. 3...
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